I’d like to think that my outburst at dinner had at least a little to do with Mike dumping Bianca. He’s been M.I.A. since dinner and everyone’s worried, but not surprised. It’s one thing to love someone from afar, but it’s another to lose her right in front of your face. He needs time, and I’m going to give it to him.

            Logan and I would occasionally carpool to school Tuesdays and Thursdays, but Andrew now takes her to school. It’s his way of actively making the official thing work. I don’t mind so much, however, it has put a dent in our quality time together. We hardly work together anymore, and she now spends a great deal of time with Andrew, Tuesdays and Thursdays were our time. I guess sometimes it happens like that.

            In lieu of Logan, there’s this really cool chick in my creative writing class, Rachel. She actually reminds me a lot of Logan; maybe that’s why I think she’s cool. Or, it could be the fact that we both laugh equally hard at this other chick in our class dying to be Sylvia Platt, or the guy who consistently comes to class drunk in hopes of re-creating Hemingway. One day Rachel politely raised her hand and proceeded to ask our older white male professor: ‘Why aren’t there any black authors on the reading list?’ He tried to put it off on the school and curriculum. The next week the syllabus was changed and Zora Neal Hurston and Langston Hughes, amongst others, were added to the list.

            Seth’s excited because with his new paid internship and Mike’s promotion they finally have enough money to move out. I volunteered to go apartment hunting with Seth since Mike wasn’t around and Logan was busy. We actually had a lot of fun. Most guys are simply practical, what fits in the budget is what they get. Seth is reasonable and practical, he had a budget, but he was also looking at other things like size, location, amenities, etc. After two days of active searching he settled on a spacious two bedroom ten minutes from school and twenty minutes from work, with a balcony, washer dryer, fridge, and a clubhouse with a fitness center and kick-ass pool. I was excited for him, and a little jealous that someone who is two years younger than I am is getting his life worked out as I am still trying to figure it all out. This is the positive and negative of quitting weed, now I actually have time to think about how screwed up my life is.

Ian turned out to be a bust. He invited me over to his house one night for dinner and a movie. It had been a few weeks and I really was starting to like Ian, he was intelligent, well-read, and did I mention physically attractive? So, I head over to his house and his roommate answers the door. I should have figured it out then because he had this nervous look on his face and said he would go get Ian. While I was waiting on him I had to go to the bathroom, and while I was in there I noticed a box of Trojans opened with three empty wrappers in the trash can. Quickly, I opened the door to see Ian attempting to sneak some girl out of his room. Seth was right he was real ‘active.’

Logan and I finally had an ‘us’ night. We went to dinner and had lots to catch up on. I told her all about Rachel and how I really wanted them to meet. I also told her about Seth and Mike’s new apartment, and how Ian and I were no more. She told me about how well she was doing in her upper division Spanish class and how she was really looking into becoming a court interpreter. Logan with a career? That was a little crazy for me, but I loved her enthusiasm for life and changes. The one thing I wasn’t anticipating was when she proceeded to tell me that she and Andrew were seriously thinking about moving out. She went on and on about all of their plans, not allowing me much room to ask questions like: ‘What the hell are you going to do about Mike?’

            After four days with Mike out of commission, he finally showed up just in time to begin moving into the new place. Though, I had no intentions of actually helping them, I offered my non-existent services just to get out of my house. There wasn’t a whole lot of moving to be done since they didn’t really have any furniture except a kitchen table. I did, however, help them plan their official house warming party for next weekend. When all the hard work had been done we sat at the table and opened a bottle of Jack (at Mike’s request) and coke, and sat talking about the week.

Me: Thanks Seth, you were so right about Ian.

Seth: I didn’t want to come off as a salt tosser, but he’s a bit much.

Mike: Worse than me?

Seth: No, but she’s not thinking of dating you seriously.

Thanks Seth, now Mike’s thinking about Logan.

Mike: I don’t think anyone wants to date me seriously.

Me: Ok, it’s obvious you’re talking about Logan, what do you expect her to do?

Mike: I don’t know. I’m just trying to make her see that I lo–, really like her.

Seth: By sleeping with tons of other girls? No offense, but you’re not really the steady type.

Me: Seth, you sure have a way with words man.

Seth: What sense does it make to lie to him? Let’s see, if I was Logan I could choose the attractive playboy with many notches on his belt, or the artsy gentleman who’s been actively chasing me for two years.

Mike: And how do you know I haven’t?

Me: You have? What did she say when you told her?

Mike: I haven’t actually told her yet. When we slept together I wanted to tell her then, but she was so intent on no one knowing and never letting it happen again.

Seth: You should totally tell her how you feel. If she picks you, great, if she doesn’t at least you know where you stand.

Mike: What do you think Ros?

Me: I don’t know about that. You could risk your friendship by telling her, I mean she is in a relationship. And, what if she doesn’t feel the same?

Seth: Rosalyn you know how she feels, at least give him a hint.

Me: No, Logan is my best friend and I promised I wouldn’t say anything or get in the middle, so I’m not.

Mike: I’m going to tell her I love her at the house warming party next week.

This Weeks Episode Features Music from:

Chris Marsol “3AM”

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